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its always better when im with you

oh im am simply ecstatic!
i got offered my job back at Royal Crest, which is awesome because
i'll start making really good money again and i wont have to
worry about my bills anymore..
&& im obviously still going to be working in a salon BECAUSE thats what i do!!
so ill be doing part time at JCP Park Meadows till i have a big enough clientele to make some good money.


oh denver, you are my life!!

now i just gotta find a house.

tonight...i just don't wanna say goodbye to you. i just dont wanna say its over too.

a life thats so demanding, i get so weak....

im so ready to get back to denver. i really miss it. i miss my family. i miss people there. i miss the places. ha i sound like a generic country song or something..
but its all true.
we still have to find a house...its a pain in the ass since i can't go up there that often & i really cant find anything online. damn. its much different from searching for apartments. blah blah.
hell, i still have to pick the salon i want to work at. i am leaning towards Park Meadows even tho i haven't been there yet, but mary seems to think i'll like the manager and that i'll be happy in that salon, so i think next saturday when i take the boys home i'll go over to park meadows & try to meet the manager if i can, see if i can get a feel for the place. im sure i'd like it...mary wouldn't steer my in the wrong direction lol.

but i have to know first where i'll be working before i can get a freaking house!!
its really kind of stressing me to no end right now.
not to mention the money factor. YEEAH.
i could probably loose my mind right now!
ahhhh!!
gah im seriously just so frustrated and so stressed..& there really isn't a lot i can do about it right now.
well by the end of august i'll be out of colorado springs, probably for good this time. i love the springs, its beautiful & part of me will always think of it as home, but its not the place for me right now.
last time i was here, it WAS the place for me and the right time.
this time around though, it was pretty much just a big party. its understandable. my closest friends spent 16 months in iraq..when they were home, all i wanted was to be with them everyday. of course!
& i did that..& now its time for me to go home and continue MY LIFE.
i can't do things for other people anymore, its time to just do things for me!!

im really anxious to get back.
i have good feelings about it.
i can't wait to hang out at the park tavern or somewhere in lodo.
i can't wait to shop at the mills or flatiron crossing or park meadows again.
i can't wait to spend time with my family and not feel like im on a freaking schedule all the time.


this is gonna be good...i can't feel it.

there's no surf in colorado anyway

just woke up from a 2 1/2 hour nap. it was nice. i can't do 15-30 minute "cat naps" if im going to take a nap, im serious about it!! lol

yesterday danielle, gregory & me went to garden of the gods.
it was fun but it was hot, it was like 102 degrees! ugh. but it was really pretty.
like 2 days before that we went to Manitou. Danielle is trying to soak in all of the things there is to do before they move. not that they know when thats going
to be, but whenever they get stationed back at home.
its been fun. im glad she & i became friends.
oh!! her & gregory got engaged on the 4th of july!!!
i was so excited. considering her & i have become good friends
& greg is like a brother to me!

well next week i'll have the boys down here in the springs for a
couple of days. im taking them to the zoo and maybe a few other places.






i guess thats it for now

sing like you think no one's listening...

ahh.
my 4th of july was great. i spent the week in denver, with pneumonia (not great.) & spent a nice amount of time recovering. friday my fam & i went to jason & emily's new house for a bbq. it was nice because i haven't seen them in a while, hadn't seen their new house & i got to see some other folks i hadn't seen in some time.
then we went to olympia or olympic park..whatever its called, right by leyla's house. we watched fireworks there for about an hour & headed home.

of course i had to be back here in springs by 10am saturday morning for work.

mel & i went out to the parrot saturday night...NO ONE was there. literally not a single one of our friends was there. thats so odd. so we decided to go to cowboys. we made some new friends lol. nice.

work has been busy for the last few days. did haircuts at the in-processing at USAFA today. fun. buzz buzz here, buzz buzz there. lol

hellena & i need to find a house. fir might move in with us when she gets back to colorado. && i have to figure out which jcp salon i want to transfer to. gah moving and all this is such a hassle. it kind of gives me anxiety. blah.
well tomorrow i gotta run to r stafford & state and get some hair color for my mess of a mane. i want to try to get on with the art of hair...maybe if i work at RCD again making the big bucks until i can build a good clientle with someone like teresa or something. iiiiiii don't know.


ok. im out

denver....

I miss you...

it's amazing...in the blink of an eye....

its really amazing when one day you realize, that your whole world has changed..but not in a bad way. i'm happier right now than i've been in my life. things are going better for me than they ever have. i realized that things that used to seem so important to me, don't see as important these days. for example..going to concerts, meeting the bands/hanging out with the bands i like...that used to be the BEST thing in my life. it used to be so important. now .. even though i love music as much if not more than i ever did, partying with the bands isn't important anymore. i love my REAL life...its amazing. i have a better bond with my family than ever before, i have the greatest and most amazing friends. i love it work, because im doing something i love to do. i don't just work to pay the bills, i work because im passionate about it. not many people can say that. i decided not to go to warped tour this year..because even though there are quite a few bands i'd really love to see, there are so many other things that i enjoy more...that i'd rather do with my time and money. of course..theres things i DON'T want to do with my money, lol..but when it comes down to warped tour or utilities, you have to have your priorities. i can understand why some people i know don't worry about that because they don't have real responsibilities. they don't have bills, they still rely on other people. thats fine for them. of course, there are certain bands i'll never miss..senses fail, acop, etc. but honestly, i'd rather go back to vegas with my friends and create memories i'm never going to forget with people who i love and who love me. people who are important in my life. i'd rather go scrapbooking for the weekend with my mom. i haven't changed at all as a person, i'm still ERIN...same girl, same personality. but i've grown up, which is definetely more than i can say for some people i know..who are still stuck in the same place they were when we were 18. my priorities have changed, and i can sincerly say i am at a better place and am happier than ive ever been before. i'm at peace with myself..it's a great feeling

this just can't be summer love...

oh im so happy it's almost summer!! ♥
my most favorite time of the year.
& it helps that i have a lot of plans this summer..im going to vegas, *hopeuflly i'll get to go to texas*, warped tour, pikes peak, camping, etc..yessstt
should be a good one.

a change of pace should be here this summer too!! &Hearts; ♥
that would be amazing. i haven't seen them in a long time. too long.
anyways...still not a lot of excitment going on here in the springs.
just been going out with friends, dancing and working. as usual.
hah
just like last time i lived here. only not so much dancing at rum bay this time around..

of course, i finally got cable & internet hooked up here at the homestead
so now i don't have to venture to the library oooooooor wait till im up
in denver. so thats nice.

i've been thinking really seriously about getting a puppy. i want a fairly small dog, cause its just not fair to have a big dog in this tiny apartment.
but im waiting till i know more realisticly what my pay is going to be looking like. since im still relatively new its hard to tell, but i have been building my clientele & working on that commission.





i just wish i could make up my mind. somedays i really love it here and can't even imagine leaving again. but then other days, i really miss my fam and denver. i think if i had more friends down here i'd be happier. its just that all of my friends, including myself, work ALL the time. so we only see each other on weekends.
and thats not always certain. i just get bored, i think thats my problem. the funny thing is, i think about running away to denver, where i really don't have many friends. i mean, i've got a couple obviously, but i think its just cause my family is there. hellena just needs to get a job here and move her ass back. and then if mel stays here it'd be awesome. but she is here for now, we just don't get to see each other very often :(

it sucks.
oh well. im out for now cause im sick of sitting on this barstool, its hurting my ass

too much to do with no time to spare

wow. i can't believe i haven't writte since BEFORE i moved. well damn, a LOT of stuff has happened since then. i feel like everytime i am in the springs, life is very chaotic and there is just so much going on. weird considering denver is so much bigger with so many more people.
ANYWAY.
so i moved in to my apartment march 15.
we ended up hiring movers cause really no one wanted to move my crap up 3 flights of stairs haha.
so the move went pretty quick. leyla and the boys came down along with my folks to help me move. after that melanie and laney came over to help me unpack.
that night we well went to the parrot for St Patricks Day.
pretty much everyone was there.



when we left the bar that night, the guys (travis, gregory, & ak) got into a fight with some dudes out in the back parking lot. oh yeah, mel was in the fight too, she broke some dudes nose! haha awesome. well they all 4 got arrested and we had to hang out at the police station for like 3 hours. it was ridiculous.
i dont think anyone went out downtown for a couple of weekends after that lol.
i just started spending a lot of time with the guys that were ETSing.
Laney, Sanchez, OB, etc...
at the beginning of this month, me, hellena & jess put together these going away gifts for the guys that were leaving. we also had a HUGE ETS party for the guys at Jess' old apartment.
it was crazy. there were more people there than i knew what to do with.




there was so undue drama there as well. but it was just stupid so whatev. then that week, OB, Sanchez & Laney all left. i was pretty sad. i miss them all. but im sure i'll see Laney again, hopefully Sanchez too.
Jess left last Saturday. her & duncan went to Virginia. its definetely crazy to have pretty much everyone gone. Mel is still here, but i don't get to see her much. Hellena is obviously still here, but she is probably staying up in Denver. Gregory & Danielle are here and thats about it really. well i just got my cable & internet this week so i should be posting more often on this thing. but for now thats all i got

if im just bad news, then you're a liar

man i definetely forgot how much of a pain in the ass moving is.
oh well. its always worth it!
& saturday is the BIG MOVE. haha i went to wal mart today & bought $90 worth of
cleaning supplies. sheesh. and i pulled my vaccum out of storage, so tomorrow im
going to go get it cleaned up before everyone comes down saturday.

yesterday was my last day at royal crest :\ it was kind of bittersweet.
i was a little sad, i even teared up a bit because i really like the people i
worked with there. but its time for me to move on with my life and move on with the career ive always wanted

today i just need to finish doing my laundry & pack the last bit of my clothes & shoes & i'll be ready to go. yessss. heh im a little excited. i got 2 really cute roxy shirts at ross today. gotta love ross lol.

well i guess i should be off to finish up.

surfside beach

i don't care what anyone says, Mike Birbiglia is 10,000x funnier than Dane Cook. & i love dane cook, we all know this!

so i've really been thinking about it & as scared as i will be to leave my family, it doesn't have to be anything permanant. but what im going to do is really save my money up & then maybe when my lease is up in the springs i can move down to texas. corpus christi, galveston or surfside. whatev.
yeah but..that is my plan of attack..





oh p.s. i move next saturday!

i need to know, if i am doing this all on my own

i really wish i was strong than i am. don't get me wrong, im a pretty strong person. but i think about things like, i really really want to move. i mean, i love colorado, i think it's great & we've pretty much got it all here. but the one state in this country i think i'd love as much as colorado is texas. i've thought that for years now. i would really be happy in austin or i think maybe the gulf coast areas..surfside beach, corpus christi, etc. but im soo terrified to move. i'm afraid to go without my family. but i have to try it. i mean, i have a lot of friends in texas, mostly in austin & san antonio, but i could handle it.
i think i'd appreciate colorado more if i was away for a while.
i mean, i didn't leave for college, not like most of the people i know.
i've live all over this country..well..lol not ALL over, but maryland/dc, oklahoma, colorado..but it's been with my family. most people my age are far away from their families & they handle it just fine.

i just feel like i'd really like to experience some different things in my life, and i know now would be the time to do that since i don't have kids or a serious boyfriend or anything. so why can't i build up the courage to do so??

i just have to stop being so scared.

ready.set.GO!

ok. i am back from my weekend in Louisville. it was nice, relaxing.
but somehow, im more tired now, than i was when i left.
it was so nice all week, in the 70s yesterday & today..HELLO SNOW!
ugh, if theres one thing i really don't like about colorado, THIS is it.


well i move in 2 weeks. 2 weeks from yesterday.
im anxious. im excited. im getting nervous. i've gotta get a UHaul.
thats gonna be pricey. i still need a couch :\
& i havent packed a SINGLE THING. sure most of my stuff is still in
storage, but there are quite a few things here that i'll need to move. crap.
crap crap crap.

weeeeell. i don't really have a lot to say i guess.
oh im going to be interviewing at JCP Salon in Chapel Hills. that'd be nice
to get that job, cause i'll be making tips which always are a big help.
hmm.
keeping my fingers crossed for sure.

Koa's 1st birthday is this coming saturday. aww yay!
can't believe he's going to be 1 already. its kinda sad but
time flies, right?

i seriously need to consolidate some of my things, i know i don't need
all of the stuff i have here. why can't i just throw some shit out?
seriously.
yeah i think im going to start on that project.

you kiss me, then diss me, & now you say you miss me

tomorrow im going to Louisville/Boulder with my momma...getting away from
Denver for a few days. too bad its not out of colorado. oh well.
i move in just about 2 weeks. crazy man! ha.
anyways.
i started taking phentermine again...its already making me have crazy
whacked out dreams. last nights was just..insane.
hahah
i was audtioning for american idol, or something similar, & my audtion song
was "weekend warriors" by a change of pace...at the end of the song, Torry from
ACOP came out & started singing with me. then the rest of the band came out & were playing their instruments.
after that we were in this half fun house/half creepy haunted mansion. i was talking to johnny acop & he was all "oh go over here with me, im scared to use the bathroom cause of the monster" wtf? then he was on the trampoline with jon acop & sanchez
& ob & brad from real world/road rules?!
so then they got like sucked up by the trampoline & this girl suzanne, that i work with, was all "oh no! not again!! this always happens"
we started freaking out looking for them, so me & torry acop grab this dude i went to high school with, DaShaud (who i haven't seen in so many years lol) & we were going to find the guys, but then they all came like skpping around the corner.
but then this gollum-esque creature grabbed OB by the collar & took off....then my alarm went off.
lmao.
fucking nuts.

oh god.
tomorrow...tomorrow....I LOVE YOU TOMORROW.
hahahah i seriously can't wait, i love getting away, even if its only a few cities away.



& yeah, i STILL want to live on a beach. for real. i think in a couple years after im more established im gonna move to huntington beach or idk..somewhere with a beach. thats what i need in life.

VIVA LAS VEGAS!

so my sister is OFFICIALLY getting married in Vegas...06/07/08
yesssss! haha i've never been to vegas, so this is going to be great. my parents, my nephews & i are all going to stay at Circus!Circus! i think my sis is going to
the Bellagio or something.
dude.
im thrilled. hahaha
& im starting on phenteramine again. i had such good results last time
so this is going to be good, i can tell.


welllllll
im really freaking excited to move too.
just a couple weeks now.
yay!





i guess thats all the exciting news for now

up on the rooftop, listening to punk rock...

so i signed the lease today, so it's official
& i'll be moving to colorado springs, or BACK to colorado springs,
on march 15. yay.

& warped tour is looking positive for this summer.
june 29 @ invesco...gym class heroes, angels & airwaves, horrorpops, rise against,
& reel big fish. woooo thats going to be great!!
tonight, melanie & i are going to go to Entertainmart & im going
to find the MEST cds i need to replace & also am going to look for HomeGrown "Kings of Pop"






yep.

then we are going to the parrot.
yay

blah.

i'm really irritated today. i don't know why though..nothing really has happened to irritate me. well, thats life for you i suppose. so this weekend = lease signing & the thirsty parrot. yay!
can't wait to go party with my BFF in the springs & to (hopefully) see some of my other friends down there.
thinking about getting a new tattoo this weekend...not sure yet, but i'd like to. plus if im going to get one, i oughta do it before i have to start paying rent again, right? right!
koa's 1st birthday is just a couple weeks away. it's crazy..i remember when i first met mel & she was like...5 months pregnant? maybe?! i definetely didn't think we'd become the friends we are today. it's weird the directions life takes sometimes. hah. i just remember thinking "im not doing this bitch's hair" hahah look at us know, she's my best friend, practically my sister & Koa is one of the loves of my life!! never thought i'd be as attached to him as i am.
BUT..we are going to PUMP IT UP for his birthday..in the springs. we have a place like it in Denver called MONKEY BUSINESS...Tiernon is SOOOO excited to go. "T i am so exiciting for pump it up monkey business" hahaha. that kid seriously says some of the funniest things to me. "I want to play with your friends little kid" any kids that are younger than him are "that little kid"...


you know, im really looking foward to this summer. i get to go to OKC & visit my family. im also hoping some great bands come to denver, so i can see some good shows. i haven't been to a good show in forever..well, senses fail & nfg was in november, but that was the last one. warped tour will be good this year i think.

im just so damn tired lately, i am trying to get adjusted to my synthroid again & im pretty sure its messing with me. all i want to do is sleep. but my thyroid levels are normal right now, so who knows...

my parent's house is FINALLY starting to look like a home again, rather than a construction zone. they got all of the flooring in the living room & dining room upstairs put in. got new furniture & a new tv...FLAT SCREEN. it's super nice! they just have to do the lower cabinents next..& the carpet in the bedroom & office.

it'll be so nice here once they finish.


well off to run errands

ok so i failed at the writing everyday thing...but its ok.
i've been super busy i guess, just trying to get stuff together to move.
i've been buying little things here & there so that i don't have
to buy so much once i am actually moved out. i got a new set of silverware the other day...it's pretty nice. im getting a new set of dishes & some new glasses.
i just want stuff that matches, in my first apartment, everything was stuff either my parents or my sister gave me...which is fine cause it was my first apartment
but now im at a point where, i'd like all of my stuff to match. i guess i'll just give the old stuff to goodwill or something?!


next weekend im going down to springs to go out with Melanie.
im sure we'll be at the parrot...


& then the following weekend, i'll be in Louisville. THEN on the 8th of March
it'll be Koa's 1st birthday...
& then finally, on the 15th, i'll be moving.
shit. this was pretty much my last free, lazy weekend. ha
it's cool though.
i went to my sister's house last night & hung out with my youngest
nephew Tiernon while he rocked out to guitar hero.
he's getting pretty good.
i think he finally understands the concept. ha




& i also colored my hair...
today i just bought a couple of things i needed at Target..
$50 later, i am home.
yeah.
& now i think i'll go be a bum for a while

you're a SINKHOLE

well the sinkhole on I-25 is still messing things up.


oh boy.
well whatev.
someday it'll be fixed.

right now im tired as hell & if it snows as bad tonight/tomorrow as
it is supposed to, im sure as hell not going to work.
no sir ee.

well im going to go be a bum on the couch.

remind me that we'll always have each other, when everything else is gone

im going to try to write on here everyday...even when nothing very interesting is going on. i've always found in my life that writing helps me express myself, helps me vent, or simply keeps me entertained.
if you don't like it...why are you reading it? i mean, really.


i told my supervisor today that my last day at Royal Crest will be
March 12. then i had a mini anxiety attack. really. ask my friends at
work. i kind of panicked, i think only because now with the lease being taken
care of & with giving my last day, etc, it felt finalized. i kind of have a phobia
of commitment. gee go figure.
anyways, im better now. ha.






you know, i realized i really have amazing friends. whether they are my close friends, my best friend, or just some casual friends. i've just surrounded myself with some really great people. im thankful for everyone. everyone who makes me laugh everyday, especially when im in a bad mood. i am thankful for the people who listen to me bitch, moan & cry.
thanks for being fucking rad people!!





i started packing some stuff last night. i figure i have like a month so im okay, not in a big hurry. but the sooner i get it done, the less i have to worry about later.
right? right!

i can lead the nation with a microphone...

iiiiiiii am really thrilled about my apartment. now i know im just going to be
insanely anxious until the day i move. but it's ok. i need time to pack the
stuff i have at my parents house & stuff. yay springs!
hah.

& currently my parent's house looks like a fucking construction zone.
ugh. they tore out their carpet & are putting down hardwood. wow.
its a fucking job. im glad im NOT doing it.

oh &...

my current ♥
-my hair heheh i haven't straightened it in forever. so ive been wearing it
wavy, or natural since this is how my hair is natural (of course i added a little product)



-my new ROXY phone case. isn't it cute?


-lords of dogtown ..i hadn't seen it since it first came out, & i forgot how much i love it!

(dude in the orange shirt is SO my friend sanchez. he even looks like him if sanchez had long, blonde hair hah)


i guess maybe i should go & start packing some stuff. maybe going
through my clothes?
yep.

happy day!

so i got my apartment. the leasing agent called.
i will go to sign the lease on feb 23...i won't move in till march 15.
but im fucking thrilled!!
oh man.
it's still a month but thats ok cause it gives me time to really plan
& have some $$ so that i can not be broke as a joke when i get down
there!
yesss.

the move.

still stressing out over the move. im worried about not getting the apartment i want. worried about finding a job in springs. worried about pretty much everything. im very obviously my mother's daughter, the way i worry.

i feel good about going back though...