we've all been lost for most of this life, everywhere we turn, more hatred surrounds us....

i know, i know, i know! i haven't written in forever.
and now its going to be a while before i can write again because i just moved, so no cable/no internet. but hopefully comcast won't take years to get me set back up.

other than that, things are going pretty well. i'm still busy as always with 2 jobs. trying to get time with my friends and family.
i'm going to texas july 21, and i can't wait! its going to be a million degrees, but i don't care, i LOVE Austin so so much!!

<3 !!!
i'm planning a trip to vegas with the girls in october also, so that'll be great.

i've lost a total of 32lbs. not quite to goal...BUT, i'm not going to let it get me down because 32 lbs is great!
i guess i dont really know what to write other than this. so i'm off.

to no shame, never playin' the fame game!

admittedly, i've been bad about blogging lately.
i've been really busy & really stressed. i'm looking for a new car because mine is just not doing great. i'm actually relieved to be getting a new one, looking at a Chevy HHR . yep. looks like an old school mafia car!

work is getting really busy, which i'm thankful for, so thats great.
Steph will be out here from Cali in a couple of weeks! I'm excited & Metro is putting on a production of RENT so that'll be a freakin blast!!

also...

NEW MOON came out yesterday <3!! love it.

I lost another 3 lbs. I hadn't weighed myself in forever because when I was in Louisville I went off track a little bit, but nothing too bad. I really like the support group I'm in through Kaiser. The women in there are great! 

I'm really tired & feeling unmotivated to write or anything else. Blah. Sunday nights...i just want to be a bum

my tattoos so far..

getting a cover up on my shoulder, over the lily. also recently got a feather on my thumb...starting my other sleeve next month!

good things are happening

I have had the most positive outlook on life recently, I'm so happy!
I mean, I've always been a very happy, positive, optimistic person, but lately, its been even more.
I've lost 21 lbs since my surgery. Everyone has been complimenting me like crazy, I am feeling already, 100x better! I still haven't tried certain foods, for fear of getting "stuck". it hasn't happened yet, I'd like to keep
it that way. No bread, no rice. But I have done noodles and so far, had no problems, however, I've still only had one fill, so that might change down the road a bit.

Last week, I got my cover up tattoo started. Ian also did my thumb, and next sunday I'll go back to finish it. Then we'll start my other sleeve, I cannot wait to see what he comes up with, with the ideas I've given him!

We are getting busier at the salon. So things are really looking up there.

Everything is going well right now. I am very very happy.

Viva is in a couple of weeks. I really want to go, I could ride with Christy but I don't know that i'll have the money for the hotel. We'll see. I'm definitely planning on going to Ink & Iron in June though!

Well I'm off, going to socialize with everyone here at the salon.

<3

4 weeks

its been 4 weeks today, since my surgery. i've lost 21 lbs! i can't even believe it!!
i dont..i dont know what to think . i'm so beyond ecstatic! wow.


i am feeling so great.

i need to see Remember Me because I am in love with Robert Pattinson in this movie.
how funny..i dont generally like him. haha wow, good for him!
he looks like a man in that movie. he looks a little rugged, a little tormented lol, i love it!

next weekend im going to louisville for a scrapbooking weekend, which is greeat
since i haven't been to one in a while. then the following week i get a new tattoo!! <3 <3

other than that there is really nothing interesting going on with me and i'm finding myself to be way too tired to write anymore

dammit. i love keeping up with the kardashians.

we were fated to pretend

so here i am, sitting at work, waiting for my next client to come in.
i am so happy i have this job, this amazing salon..the kind of place i've wanted to work
ever since starting beauty school.  i love it!

i'm also waiting for lunch to get here...black bean soup from panera bread <3!!
so good!

well thursday night was my first lapband support group. it was great!
there was a woman there who had surgery the same day as my, feb 1st, same
surgeon, she was the appointment before me. ha so it was good to see how she
was doing. there was a woman who was 6 months out & 90lbs down!!!
wow!

but it was really neat to have a monthly support group to go to and ask any questions
we have, or vent or whatever. i find myself taking support anywhere i can get it.
i have all the support of my family & friends, which makes me incredibly happy, but of course, they dont
understand what i'm going through. so its also nice to have the support groups and the people on lapbandtalk
since they understand what you are going through, they can answer questions, help you calm down
if you're freaking out about something lol.

15 lbs down..i can't believe it! in just 3 weeks!!
now i know i've made the right decision!

anyhow..tonight i'm off to spend the night with my nephews & have some wii battles!