it's amazing...in the blink of an eye....

its really amazing when one day you realize, that your whole world has changed..but not in a bad way. i'm happier right now than i've been in my life. things are going better for me than they ever have. i realized that things that used to seem so important to me, don't see as important these days. for example..going to concerts, meeting the bands/hanging out with the bands i like...that used to be the BEST thing in my life. it used to be so important. now .. even though i love music as much if not more than i ever did, partying with the bands isn't important anymore. i love my REAL life...its amazing. i have a better bond with my family than ever before, i have the greatest and most amazing friends. i love it work, because im doing something i love to do. i don't just work to pay the bills, i work because im passionate about it. not many people can say that. i decided not to go to warped tour this year..because even though there are quite a few bands i'd really love to see, there are so many other things that i enjoy more...that i'd rather do with my time and money. of course..theres things i DON'T want to do with my money, lol..but when it comes down to warped tour or utilities, you have to have your priorities. i can understand why some people i know don't worry about that because they don't have real responsibilities. they don't have bills, they still rely on other people. thats fine for them. of course, there are certain bands i'll never miss..senses fail, acop, etc. but honestly, i'd rather go back to vegas with my friends and create memories i'm never going to forget with people who i love and who love me. people who are important in my life. i'd rather go scrapbooking for the weekend with my mom. i haven't changed at all as a person, i'm still ERIN...same girl, same personality. but i've grown up, which is definetely more than i can say for some people i know..who are still stuck in the same place they were when we were 18. my priorities have changed, and i can sincerly say i am at a better place and am happier than ive ever been before. i'm at peace with myself..it's a great feeling

this just can't be summer love...

oh im so happy it's almost summer!! ♥
my most favorite time of the year.
& it helps that i have a lot of plans this summer..im going to vegas, *hopeuflly i'll get to go to texas*, warped tour, pikes peak, camping, etc..yessstt
should be a good one.

a change of pace should be here this summer too!! &Hearts; ♥
that would be amazing. i haven't seen them in a long time. too long.
anyways...still not a lot of excitment going on here in the springs.
just been going out with friends, dancing and working. as usual.
hah
just like last time i lived here. only not so much dancing at rum bay this time around..

of course, i finally got cable & internet hooked up here at the homestead
so now i don't have to venture to the library oooooooor wait till im up
in denver. so thats nice.

i've been thinking really seriously about getting a puppy. i want a fairly small dog, cause its just not fair to have a big dog in this tiny apartment.
but im waiting till i know more realisticly what my pay is going to be looking like. since im still relatively new its hard to tell, but i have been building my clientele & working on that commission.





i just wish i could make up my mind. somedays i really love it here and can't even imagine leaving again. but then other days, i really miss my fam and denver. i think if i had more friends down here i'd be happier. its just that all of my friends, including myself, work ALL the time. so we only see each other on weekends.
and thats not always certain. i just get bored, i think thats my problem. the funny thing is, i think about running away to denver, where i really don't have many friends. i mean, i've got a couple obviously, but i think its just cause my family is there. hellena just needs to get a job here and move her ass back. and then if mel stays here it'd be awesome. but she is here for now, we just don't get to see each other very often :(

it sucks.
oh well. im out for now cause im sick of sitting on this barstool, its hurting my ass

too much to do with no time to spare

wow. i can't believe i haven't writte since BEFORE i moved. well damn, a LOT of stuff has happened since then. i feel like everytime i am in the springs, life is very chaotic and there is just so much going on. weird considering denver is so much bigger with so many more people.
ANYWAY.
so i moved in to my apartment march 15.
we ended up hiring movers cause really no one wanted to move my crap up 3 flights of stairs haha.
so the move went pretty quick. leyla and the boys came down along with my folks to help me move. after that melanie and laney came over to help me unpack.
that night we well went to the parrot for St Patricks Day.
pretty much everyone was there.



when we left the bar that night, the guys (travis, gregory, & ak) got into a fight with some dudes out in the back parking lot. oh yeah, mel was in the fight too, she broke some dudes nose! haha awesome. well they all 4 got arrested and we had to hang out at the police station for like 3 hours. it was ridiculous.
i dont think anyone went out downtown for a couple of weekends after that lol.
i just started spending a lot of time with the guys that were ETSing.
Laney, Sanchez, OB, etc...
at the beginning of this month, me, hellena & jess put together these going away gifts for the guys that were leaving. we also had a HUGE ETS party for the guys at Jess' old apartment.
it was crazy. there were more people there than i knew what to do with.




there was so undue drama there as well. but it was just stupid so whatev. then that week, OB, Sanchez & Laney all left. i was pretty sad. i miss them all. but im sure i'll see Laney again, hopefully Sanchez too.
Jess left last Saturday. her & duncan went to Virginia. its definetely crazy to have pretty much everyone gone. Mel is still here, but i don't get to see her much. Hellena is obviously still here, but she is probably staying up in Denver. Gregory & Danielle are here and thats about it really. well i just got my cable & internet this week so i should be posting more often on this thing. but for now thats all i got

if im just bad news, then you're a liar

man i definetely forgot how much of a pain in the ass moving is.
oh well. its always worth it!
& saturday is the BIG MOVE. haha i went to wal mart today & bought $90 worth of
cleaning supplies. sheesh. and i pulled my vaccum out of storage, so tomorrow im
going to go get it cleaned up before everyone comes down saturday.

yesterday was my last day at royal crest :\ it was kind of bittersweet.
i was a little sad, i even teared up a bit because i really like the people i
worked with there. but its time for me to move on with my life and move on with the career ive always wanted

today i just need to finish doing my laundry & pack the last bit of my clothes & shoes & i'll be ready to go. yessss. heh im a little excited. i got 2 really cute roxy shirts at ross today. gotta love ross lol.

well i guess i should be off to finish up.

surfside beach

i don't care what anyone says, Mike Birbiglia is 10,000x funnier than Dane Cook. & i love dane cook, we all know this!

so i've really been thinking about it & as scared as i will be to leave my family, it doesn't have to be anything permanant. but what im going to do is really save my money up & then maybe when my lease is up in the springs i can move down to texas. corpus christi, galveston or surfside. whatev.
yeah but..that is my plan of attack..





oh p.s. i move next saturday!

i need to know, if i am doing this all on my own

i really wish i was strong than i am. don't get me wrong, im a pretty strong person. but i think about things like, i really really want to move. i mean, i love colorado, i think it's great & we've pretty much got it all here. but the one state in this country i think i'd love as much as colorado is texas. i've thought that for years now. i would really be happy in austin or i think maybe the gulf coast areas..surfside beach, corpus christi, etc. but im soo terrified to move. i'm afraid to go without my family. but i have to try it. i mean, i have a lot of friends in texas, mostly in austin & san antonio, but i could handle it.
i think i'd appreciate colorado more if i was away for a while.
i mean, i didn't leave for college, not like most of the people i know.
i've live all over this country..well..lol not ALL over, but maryland/dc, oklahoma, colorado..but it's been with my family. most people my age are far away from their families & they handle it just fine.

i just feel like i'd really like to experience some different things in my life, and i know now would be the time to do that since i don't have kids or a serious boyfriend or anything. so why can't i build up the courage to do so??

i just have to stop being so scared.

ready.set.GO!

ok. i am back from my weekend in Louisville. it was nice, relaxing.
but somehow, im more tired now, than i was when i left.
it was so nice all week, in the 70s yesterday & today..HELLO SNOW!
ugh, if theres one thing i really don't like about colorado, THIS is it.


well i move in 2 weeks. 2 weeks from yesterday.
im anxious. im excited. im getting nervous. i've gotta get a UHaul.
thats gonna be pricey. i still need a couch :\
& i havent packed a SINGLE THING. sure most of my stuff is still in
storage, but there are quite a few things here that i'll need to move. crap.
crap crap crap.

weeeeell. i don't really have a lot to say i guess.
oh im going to be interviewing at JCP Salon in Chapel Hills. that'd be nice
to get that job, cause i'll be making tips which always are a big help.
hmm.
keeping my fingers crossed for sure.

Koa's 1st birthday is this coming saturday. aww yay!
can't believe he's going to be 1 already. its kinda sad but
time flies, right?

i seriously need to consolidate some of my things, i know i don't need
all of the stuff i have here. why can't i just throw some shit out?
seriously.
yeah i think im going to start on that project.