a life thats so demanding, i get so weak....

im so ready to get back to denver. i really miss it. i miss my family. i miss people there. i miss the places. ha i sound like a generic country song or something..
but its all true.
we still have to find a house...its a pain in the ass since i can't go up there that often & i really cant find anything online. damn. its much different from searching for apartments. blah blah.
hell, i still have to pick the salon i want to work at. i am leaning towards Park Meadows even tho i haven't been there yet, but mary seems to think i'll like the manager and that i'll be happy in that salon, so i think next saturday when i take the boys home i'll go over to park meadows & try to meet the manager if i can, see if i can get a feel for the place. im sure i'd like it...mary wouldn't steer my in the wrong direction lol.

but i have to know first where i'll be working before i can get a freaking house!!
its really kind of stressing me to no end right now.
not to mention the money factor. YEEAH.
i could probably loose my mind right now!
ahhhh!!
gah im seriously just so frustrated and so stressed..& there really isn't a lot i can do about it right now.
well by the end of august i'll be out of colorado springs, probably for good this time. i love the springs, its beautiful & part of me will always think of it as home, but its not the place for me right now.
last time i was here, it WAS the place for me and the right time.
this time around though, it was pretty much just a big party. its understandable. my closest friends spent 16 months in iraq..when they were home, all i wanted was to be with them everyday. of course!
& i did that..& now its time for me to go home and continue MY LIFE.
i can't do things for other people anymore, its time to just do things for me!!

im really anxious to get back.
i have good feelings about it.
i can't wait to hang out at the park tavern or somewhere in lodo.
i can't wait to shop at the mills or flatiron crossing or park meadows again.
i can't wait to spend time with my family and not feel like im on a freaking schedule all the time.


this is gonna be good...i can't feel it.